Well, everyone, it’s official. I am about 99.9% sure I’m going through one of my ‘slightly more depressed than usual’ phases. I’m a bit more detached and apathetic. I’ve been sleeping a lot more than usual, despite my fear of sleep. And, to top it off, Neko-chan has been behaving more like a butt-munch lately. So, combined with my loss of interest in books, I’m pretty sure this is me being slightly more depressed than usual.
Now, I’ve been diagnosed with Dysthymia before and just got re-diagnosed with the DSM 5’s version of Dysthymia. They call it “Persistent Depressive Disorder” now. Anyway, it was once described to me that my mood was similar to that of a person with Bipolar, now called Manic Depressive Disorder, except I wouldn’t have the Mania part of it. I would just have varying degrees of being depressed, slightly depressed, majorly depressed, not all that depressed. So, like being Bipolar, only with varying states of being depressed. (I want to note that I don’t have Manic Depressive Disorder, nor have I done a lot of research about it, so I am only saying what limited knowledge I have on it as it pertains to me.)
[Edit: Okay, so it’s called Bipolar in the new DSM. It used to be called Manic-Depression. Fun fact that I also was unaware of until ToadieOdie informed me is that Dysthymia (now called Persistent Depressive Disorder) used to be under the Bipolar category but was placed under the Depression bit instead this time around. She’s a brilliant person and I highly recommend reading her blog if you follow mine. Art of Chaos is her blog. There’s a link. Go check it out.)
This is sort of relevant because, once I can recognize that I’m feeling a bit depressed (if more so than usual), I can nip it in the bud if I can find the cause of it. Sometimes I just feel a bit sad for seemingly no reason, and that’s totally fine. There’s nothing wrong with that. I think I may be sad about Fred or something.
So, while today will be another quick “I’m not dead” post, I did want to let you know that I got the results of all the testing I did with Argon today. I went over it with someone that wasn’t Argon. I want to process it mentally before I blog about it. Mostly because I don’t know how I feel about it yet and I want a chance to maybe talk to Charon about it too. Although, I don’t see her until Monday. So I’ll probably blog about it before that. So far, the only person that I’ve talked to about it besides the lady that went over it with me is Kuma-chan. I just straight up sent her a pic of the diagnoses. Because she’s Kuma-chan and she’s my best friend.
It’s Autumn here. It feels so nice and crisp outside. Also, I’m tired and I’m going to go to bed in a bit.
Good night, my dear internet people.
-The Sarcastic Autist