Okay, I’m really struggling lately. I don’t know what the fuck my problem is. I’ve had more thoughts of hurting myself or suicide stuff lately than I have since last year. Now, I do want to say that I’m not in danger of hurting myself or killing myself at all right now because I made a promise that I wouldn’t while doing DBT and I’m still doing DBT.
Actually, the more I think about the wording and the belief system behind DBT, the more I think I’m never going to be done with DBT and therefore can never ever do anything to hurt myself ever again. I take my promises quite seriously. That said, I have been having more urges to engage in Self-Injurious behaviour and Eating Disorder Behaviour and that bothers me because I don’t know why.
I don’t really want to do a whole post today because I don’t feel up to it, but I thought to check in. I want to let you all know I’m not dead and no worries. I ‘m just depressed. I also don’t feel well.
At least my butt is minty.
-The Sarcastic Autist