I don’t know what the fuck my problem is that I can’t fucking open my mouth and speak. I’m very upset with myself because I tell myself I can do it and then bloop there goes my words. Maybe this week I need to focus on talking like how I want and stop trying to […]
Monthly Archives: July 2017
Emotion Regulation Revelation
I did have therapy today but we didn’t do the in vivo exposure thingy or whatever, where I’m supposed to recount my rape in present tense. Mostly because I did not want to and decided that listening to Charon speak was 100% better than talking. However, despite that, I did end up talking with her […]
(TW) Trauma Recovery suuuuucks
Okay, you know what the number one big thing with Exposure therapy is? Repeating the trauma over and over and over and over again. Ideally, you would get to repeat it at least twice during each session. I managed once. One time. Barely. I didn’t even talk about the actual rape bit, just the bits […]
Exposure Therapy-Session 2 (again)
Hello, Everyone! So, I’ve been weighing under 160 for 3 days in a row now. I really want to get down to at least 155, so I’m within normal range. I also got a fitbit today so I can do challenges with my friends. There’s nickel in the band and I’m so friggin itchy. I […]
Session Recording Review-Part 1
So, I listened to part of the session recording. About half. And I’m done. I’m not in a place where I can finish it tonight. Maybe tomorrow. I took notes. I’m feeling… Slightly dissociated. But not too bad. Oh, I had been dissociated for a majority of yesterday, but then I realized I was so […]
the sarcastic autist 