So, part of the whole “exposure therapy” thing is listening to recordings of the sessions. The sound of my voice aggravates me. It reminds me of speech therapy. (Stuttering problem and also trouble forming my r’s. ) Also, I just hate the sound of my voice. The feedback on the recordings are terrible and make […]
I had a psychiatrist appointment today. She had me start Lamictal last time I was there but I stopped taking it because I decided I didn’t like it. Honestly, I’m thinking about quitting the rest of my meds and also therapy. Reason being is that, those asshole kids from yesterday made me realize something. It […]
Part of Exposure Therapy is In Vivo Exposure, which is going out to real life situations that remind you of the trauma or something and getting used to them, reminding yourself that it’s safe. Something like that. That is actually a terrible explanation. Anyway. Today I was at the spot where the rape happened for […]
So, long time no write. I really got off the habit of it this year. I I want to get back into it because of how it helps me process things. To update you all, I am still in therapy, doing the prolonged exposure thing. I have not made any progress and it’s frustrating to […]
Hiding in books and things, Slipping in distorted dreams, Dying paupers and Greasy kings, No tears are shed and so it seems, That nothing’s right and nothing’s wrong, When silence is still and forever long.