One of my favourite bands is Icon for Hire. They have a song called Here We Are that I love. Give it a listen. Something I try to make myself remember all the time is that I have survived this far. I’ve had moments of True Living. I’m not dead. I’ve kept myself alive. No matter how […]
I’m going to be starting a DBT group again next month. Seeing as I was suicidal last week and, while I’m not suicidal anymore, I’m still not done being depressed. I would describe what I’m feeling as the same as the months after my rape, the shame and feeling of unworthiness and knowing that somehow, […]
So I have a cat. She’s currently staring at me. She stares at me a lot. She wakes me up when I’m having nightmares (or when her food dish is empty). When I’m depressed or anxious or overwhelmed and I’m hiding under my blankets, she comes and meows at me until I snuggle with her […]
I’ve been depressed. I’ve been more depressed than I have been in years. By that, I mean I’ve been suicidally depressed. I have no plans to actually kill myself and I don’t want to kill myself. I enjoy being alive for the most part. I just hate myself and wish I was dead so I […]
the sarcastic autist 