I’m doing this from my phone again and I have no idea how to do tags on it. Please bear with me. I’m gonna be a panda for All Hallow’s tomorrow. I’m excited. I’m not really doing anything outside of therapy but I’m excited. I’m tired. I woke up at 3 am from nightmares. I […]
My alarm didn’t go off this morning and I only woke up because the cat started hacking up a hairball on my bed. Normally I would have woken up before my alarm bit my sleep has been such shit lately… I’m writing on my phone because I don’t feel like getting up and trying to […]
Okay, something that I’m kind of struggling with right now is that I’m not a trans man, so how do I know when I’m done with hormones? Like, how do I know when I have the proper desired effects? I don’t want to have too deep a voice and always get clocked a guy. Honestly, […]
Sometimes my anxiety is so bad I wish I had a small supply of Ativan or something to take. Today is one of those days. -the sarcastic autist
Okay, so reading about how trans people have transitioned and all the different ways binary folks have done it has been really inspiring and all. I have no clue how nonbinary people do it. There are things insurance will cover if you are MTF but not FTM and vice versa. Like sometimes insurance will cover […]
Okay, so let’s talk about how much I suck at reading people. I suck at reading people. I really, really, truly do. Probably because Autism. I’m going to tell Charon that this is something I really want to work on because I need to. I don’t know how to act and that bothers me. We […]
My nose is stuffed and I am still tired and we had a substitute therapist today instead of Charon. He was nice. He was also a fun guy. I’ll post more tomorrow. I don’t think I posted last night either. I’ve been starting to shut down gradually and I just noticed that so I’m trying […]
So, my therapist may have to cancel group Wednesday for personal reasons. I get it, shit comes up, she’s only human. I hope it all turns out okay for her. I totally danced around why I’ve been anxious lately and not sleeping well. It’s not the rape, so there’s that. It’s a million other things […]
Okay, so I tend to be very bad at being able to do the whole break everything down into manageable tasks thing. I see the forest and I see the trees and I see the leaves on the trees and I forget about the branches and then remember about the branches and end up getting […]
Oh gods, the anxiety. The trans support group is tomorrow and I’m finding myself desperate to come up with an excuse not to go. Which isn’t going to work since I’ve already decided that I’m going. I no longer have a choice. I have to at least walk in the building it’s being held in. […]
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