Something I thought about earlier: Why do I listen to my anxiety and depression if they’re such fucking liars? I have no follow up on that line of thinking, just thought I would share. Moving on. I made an appointment with my psychiatrist, Styx, to talk about meds for my anxiety and depression. I still […]
Trigger Warning: Childhood Abuse It hasn’t quite been an hour yet. I managed to write the two instances I remember down, even if it isn’t very detailed. Before I type them up, I feel like I should give some background on some things. When I was a kid, we lived in […]
Okay, I had DBT group today, again the LGBT one, and again, I didn’t hate it. I like the people. I ran into the issue of getting anxious and wanting to leave. My heart rate went from it’s normal 50-70 range to 130 at one point. I spent the better half of group focusing on […]
I chickened out of talking to Charon, my therapist, about the flashbacks and shit. I… Feel like a dumbass. Honestly, I just shut down a bit. I almost started crying. I don’t feel good about today’s session. -The Sarcastic Autist
Okay, so I sleep better wearing lots of clothes again. Especially a bra, which I know you aren’t supposed to do. Let’s explore why. (Trigger Warning for childhood abuse) To start with, what I’m about to write is something I’m kind of hesitant to post. I just need to get it out there. I’m struggling […]
I had my first meeting at the LGBT DBT group yesterday. Let me tell you, it was surreal being in room where I wasn’t the minority. I enjoyed being with people who I didn’t feel like I had to put a front on for. A lot of times, I feel like I have to act […]
Therapy today. I did not tell Charon about the flashbacks. Was gonna, but then I didn’t. I don’t know what to do now. I’m kinda just done with everything right now and I feel like I need a long vacation from people. -The Sarcastic Autist
I’m not feeling great today. I haven’t been sleeping well because of nightmares and just being afraid of sleep. The reason for today’s post is because I think I broke my mind Tuesday. I was replaying a conversation I had with my therapist Charon because I was feeling a bit gaslit by something and wanted […]
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