Stood Up For Myself, Kinda

I’m doing poorly, but not as poorly as I could be, so there’s that.  I was at Big Blue Box Store earlier and there was a guy from Internet Company X who was doing sales.  Which is fine, legit, but he got way too close to me.  He made me uncomfortable.  Then he called me ‘she’.  I said to him “oh, I’m not a girl”.  He looked at me and said that he was confused.  I nodded and said I had to go find my mum and finish shopping.  I just… It made me anxious and afraid and sad.  Anxious and afraid because dude was standing way too close and I was fighting flashbacks of various situations where people got that close and copped a feel or kissed me and also because I don’t normally correct strangers when they misgender me.  Sad because I know I sound and look like a girl.  I don’t like it.  That makes me sad.

I’ve also been fighting a migraine for 2 weeks.  Well, technically, it’s only a week and a half, but still.  I ended up leaving DBT early Wednesday because it got so bad.   I think it’s finally starting to go away.  I did end up missing my friend Luffy’s annual birthday bash and I feel bad.

There’s more I wanted to post, but I’m kinda tired and want to go to bed.  Thank you for listening.

-The Sarcastic Autist

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