Grandma Died

My maternal grandmother died a few weeks back. She wasn’t the nicest person, to put it politely, but she was my grandmother. I ended up not being able to make the funeral, although I regret not being able to. I think maybe I will make plans to go see her grave. I did end up […]

Exhausted

I don’t even remember the last time I posted.  I’ve been going through so much shit lately.  I asked for some Ativan for my panic attacks and got some. I have been having a lot of panic and anxiety attacks lately.  My mum was sent to the hospital a week after Thanksgiving and she apparently […]

Drop Bears, Trauma, & Gender Stuff

Hello, friends!  Wow, has it been a rollercoaster ride these last few weeks. I’m having a really hard time with my depression and PTSD/CPTSD/whatever the fuck is wrong with me lately and have been doing the bare minimum lately.  In addition, I have cramps right now and I don’t even have a uterus, so this […]

Fucking Hells

Hey all, sorry I’ve been MIA.  I’ve been really struggling lately. Half the time I feel like I’m in some sort of weird dream state, the other half I’m just so depressed I can barely do anything. I’ve been dealing with a lot of urges to cut.  I haven’t, though. The urge is there.  Honestly, […]

I’ve moved!

Okay, folx, settle in, you’re in for a ride. So much has happened since I last updated.  I’ve moved, my mum came home from rehab and then went back to the hospital and then back home, I had a Pathfinder convention, I made new friends, and I’ve been steadily getting worse with certain aspects of […]

Stressed AF

I haven’t written in a while because life has been so hectic and I’ve been dealing with a shit ton of stress. My mum has been in a rehab facility for a few weeks now.  She has kidney stones again.  When they did the procedure to blast one of her kidneys, it fucked up her […]