Heads up, I may be a little drunk and may have been drinking a bit every day since last Wednesday. Had therapy today. I’m gonna miss Charon as a therapist, but honestly, I feel like it’s time for me to move on to someone else. It’s okay. Hopefully someone I can communicate a little better […]
Category Archives: Exposure Therapy
What A Week
Trigger/Activation Warning: Alright, it has been a fucking week, let me tell you. I’m still dealing with the shock from my brother’s declaration that my experiences are/were real and that I’m not crazy. Adding on to that, I’m graduating DBT soon and I’m unsure if I’m going to be able to keep seeing […]
On Therapeutic Shit
When I had therapy with Cybele the other day, she made me feel the most validated I have in a long while. I told her about how I feel like the most masculine presenting person in one of my trans support groups where there’s mostly trans femme and trans women, whereas in the trans masc/trans […]
Deteriorating
I made a total jack-ass of myself today. First, I was telling this trans person that they should stick melons down their shirt to make it fit better. Why the fuck I thought that was okay to tell someone I barely knew, I don’t know. That was not okay. For the record, I tell friends […]
Inner World
I’m not feeling great today. I haven’t been sleeping well because of nightmares and just being afraid of sleep. The reason for today’s post is because I think I broke my mind Tuesday. I was replaying a conversation I had with my therapist Charon because I was feeling a bit gaslit by something and wanted […]
Short Blurb on Fear
Okay, so, I posted briefly about the fender bender we had yesterday. Honestly, just talking about it has helped a bit and, while I like that, I hate that it proves my therapist right that talking about things instead of shoving them into the dark recesses of my mind is more helpful and healthy. I […]
DTRed
Okay, so, I spent the night at Sweet Pea’s house on Saturday and today is Monday, so I really just been busy. This won’t be as long as the other post I just made and I’ll be elaborating more tomorrow since I’m still tired. We DTRed tonight at my request. I’m okay with poly relationships […]
Useless Nonbinary Lesbian
Hey everyone, I’m not dead. I’ve just had a helluva week. I haven’t posted in a week. So, let’s break this down. Heads up, I talk about sex stuff later in my post and my post is super long. And by sex stuff, I don’t go into sordid details, but I do talk about sex […]
Hysterectomy Worries
It’s been a while since I actually sat down and tried to type up a post. It probably won’t be a long one since I’m distracted. I still don’t know what I’m going to do in terms the hysterectomy. I talked to my hormone doctor yesterday and she is going to have a guy call […]
Broken Thing
Tomorrow is the anniversary. I don’t know how I’m feeling except bad. And I feel bad that I feel bad. I’m just trying not to think about it much. I have Dungeons and Dragons and I have to do laundry and I’m going to do my best not to let it run my day. I […]
the sarcastic autist 