So, I’ve been undergoing testing for ADHD. I’ll get results on this coming Tuesday. I was on Strattera at the beginning of the semester, back in August, and I was doing really well on it. It gave me horrible migraines and I was in bed with them 2-3 times a week, minimum. I went from […]
There’s a lot been going on in my life. I live in the city where George Floyd was murdered. The riots were less than 2 miles from my home. I had to relocate due to the smoke and debris in the air and the white supremacists going around. I’ve been staying with my girlfriend, for […]
I don’t even remember the last time I posted. I’ve been going through so much shit lately. I asked for some Ativan for my panic attacks and got some. I have been having a lot of panic and anxiety attacks lately. My mum was sent to the hospital a week after Thanksgiving and she apparently […]
Hello, friends! Wow, has it been a rollercoaster ride these last few weeks. I’m having a really hard time with my depression and PTSD/CPTSD/whatever the fuck is wrong with me lately and have been doing the bare minimum lately. In addition, I have cramps right now and I don’t even have a uterus, so this […]
Brother and his spouse and child have been here since Thursday. There’s been a few hiccups, but nothing major. I went to Pride on Saturday for the first time. It was fun. I had therapy with Charon today. Not so fun. I’m pretty shut down for things. With Charon, it’s just… I don’t want to […]
Charon is out of the office this week and I promised I would text her if I absolutely needed to. Any time I think to text her, I start feeling anxious because I don’t want to bother her. Even though she said I could bother her. She is encouraging me to bother her. I am […]
I’m feeling overwhelmed and I have been fighting the urge to cut for a while now. I had a talk with Charon the other day and it turns out that I was misunderstanding something she was telling me, so now we have that out of the way and can continue to move forward. I’m feeling […]
When I had therapy with Cybele the other day, she made me feel the most validated I have in a long while. I told her about how I feel like the most masculine presenting person in one of my trans support groups where there’s mostly trans femme and trans women, whereas in the trans masc/trans […]
I made a total jack-ass of myself today. First, I was telling this trans person that they should stick melons down their shirt to make it fit better. Why the fuck I thought that was okay to tell someone I barely knew, I don’t know. That was not okay. For the record, I tell friends […]
I’m doing poorly, but not as poorly as I could be, so there’s that. I was at Big Blue Box Store earlier and there was a guy from Internet Company X who was doing sales. Which is fine, legit, but he got way too close to me. He made me uncomfortable. Then he called me […]
the sarcastic autist 