Exhausted

I don’t even remember the last time I posted.  I’ve been going through so much shit lately.  I asked for some Ativan for my panic attacks and got some. I have been having a lot of panic and anxiety attacks lately.  My mum was sent to the hospital a week after Thanksgiving and she apparently […]

Drop Bears, Trauma, & Gender Stuff

Hello, friends!  Wow, has it been a rollercoaster ride these last few weeks. I’m having a really hard time with my depression and PTSD/CPTSD/whatever the fuck is wrong with me lately and have been doing the bare minimum lately.  In addition, I have cramps right now and I don’t even have a uterus, so this […]

Brother, Charon, Pride

Brother and his spouse and child have been here since Thursday.  There’s been a few hiccups, but nothing major.  I went to Pride on Saturday for the first time.  It was fun.  I had therapy with Charon today.  Not so fun.  I’m pretty shut down for things. With Charon, it’s just… I don’t want to […]

Overwhelmed and Depressed

I’m feeling overwhelmed and I have been fighting the urge to cut for a while now.  I had a talk with Charon the other day and it turns out that I was misunderstanding something she was telling me, so now we have that out of the way and can continue to move forward. I’m feeling […]

On Therapeutic Shit

When I had therapy with Cybele the other day, she made me feel the most validated I have in a long while.  I told her about how I feel like the most masculine presenting person in one of my trans support groups where there’s mostly trans femme and trans women, whereas in the trans masc/trans […]