Heads up, I may be a little drunk and may have been drinking a bit every day since last Wednesday. Had therapy today.  I’m gonna miss Charon as a therapist, but honestly, I feel like it’s time for me to move on to someone else.  It’s okay.  Hopefully someone I can communicate a little better […]

Oniisan’s ETA: Thursday

My brother is packing his family’s shit up as I type and getting ready to move back here because his brother-in-law is going batshit, apparently.  I don’t like change. I haven’t seen my brother in person for around 7 years ago.  (I don’t remember the last time Okaasan says I saw him.  It’s a blank […]

Inaccessible Emotional Excess

I realize I haven’t posted in a bit.  I’ve had a lot going on.  My grandma went into the hospital last week and got transferred to transitional care this week.  I’ve been really bad about ‘making space’ for myself to let myself feel what I feel.  I started going to that trans masc support group […]

Inner World

I’m not feeling great today.  I haven’t been sleeping well because of nightmares and just being afraid of sleep. The reason for today’s post is because I think I broke my mind Tuesday.  I was replaying a conversation I had with my therapist Charon because I was feeling a bit gaslit by something and wanted […]

the Death and Rebirth of Transitioning

I had name change court Tuesday, the 15th.  I have officially changed my name.  My mum was going to drive me to the Social Security office so I can change it with them, but it’s been cold and we are lazy.  And also very sensitive to the cold.  We are planning on going Tuesday, as […]

DTRed

Okay, so, I spent the night at Sweet Pea’s house on Saturday and today is Monday, so I really just been busy.  This won’t be as long as the other post I just made and I’ll be elaborating more tomorrow since I’m still tired. We DTRed tonight at my request.  I’m okay with poly relationships […]

Useless Nonbinary Lesbian

Hey everyone, I’m not dead.  I’ve just had a helluva week.  I haven’t posted in a week.  So, let’s break this down.  Heads up, I talk about sex stuff later in my post and my post is super long.  And by sex stuff, I don’t go into sordid details, but I do talk about sex […]