Heads up, I may be a little drunk and may have been drinking a bit every day since last Wednesday. Had therapy today. I’m gonna miss Charon as a therapist, but honestly, I feel like it’s time for me to move on to someone else. It’s okay. Hopefully someone I can communicate a little better […]
Category Archives: Trauma Related
Brother, Charon, Pride
Brother and his spouse and child have been here since Thursday. There’s been a few hiccups, but nothing major. I went to Pride on Saturday for the first time. It was fun. I had therapy with Charon today. Not so fun. I’m pretty shut down for things. With Charon, it’s just… I don’t want to […]
Therapy and Feeling Like…
Charon and I talked for a few minutes this morning before group. She said the therapist she recommended doesn’t think she’d be a good fit. I only have to find someone who deals with extensive childhood trauma in autistic queer folx. I’ve lost weight over the last few weeks because of the stress and shit […]
Oniisan’s ETA: Thursday
My brother is packing his family’s shit up as I type and getting ready to move back here because his brother-in-law is going batshit, apparently. I don’t like change. I haven’t seen my brother in person for around 7 years ago. (I don’t remember the last time Okaasan says I saw him. It’s a blank […]
Wanted:New Therapist
Okay, I promise I’ll respond to comments later, probably tomorrow or something. I just got back from therapy and my trans-masc support group. I talked to Charon and I am going to have to get a new therapist. Honestly, while I’m sad, it’s probably for the best because there’s stuff I don’t think I’d be […]
What A Week
Trigger/Activation Warning: Alright, it has been a fucking week, let me tell you. I’m still dealing with the shock from my brother’s declaration that my experiences are/were real and that I’m not crazy. Adding on to that, I’m graduating DBT soon and I’m unsure if I’m going to be able to keep seeing […]
Validation of Childhood Trauma
I ended up texting Charon on Sunday because of what happened Saturday night. What happened Saturday is that my brother and I had a conversation. His brother-in-law overdosed and took a video and sent it to their entire family via text. My nephew plays on his parents’ phones a lot and could have seen it. […]
DBT, LGBT, & Texting Anxiety
Charon is out of the office this week and I promised I would text her if I absolutely needed to. Any time I think to text her, I start feeling anxious because I don’t want to bother her. Even though she said I could bother her. She is encouraging me to bother her. I am […]
Overwhelmed and Depressed
I’m feeling overwhelmed and I have been fighting the urge to cut for a while now. I had a talk with Charon the other day and it turns out that I was misunderstanding something she was telling me, so now we have that out of the way and can continue to move forward. I’m feeling […]
A Wee Bit Upset
Had Charon today. I’m trying to do some Exposure Therapy stuff on my own with going to the Red Box Store that gives me flashbacks and shit and ended up being a bit late because I went to Red Box Store beforehand and missed the tram. Something that’s bothering me about Charon right now is […]
the sarcastic autist 