I realize I haven’t posted in a bit. I’ve had a lot going on. My grandma went into the hospital last week and got transferred to transitional care this week. I’ve been really bad about ‘making space’ for myself to let myself feel what I feel. I started going to that trans masc support group […]
I am allergic to dogs. I am very allergic to dogs. I’m allergic to cats, too, but Neko-chan is long haired and that means all her crud is trapped like me in this hell hole of a town. I got a list of places with open wait lists for low-income housing from an agency my […]
Today was the first day I got to watch my godmother’s dogs. It was okay. I’m itchy. Surprisingly, I only got anxious thinking about someone stealing my bike. Not about someone potentially breaking in and raping and/or murdering me. So I’m going to chalk that up as a win. I’ve been having a hard time […]
lavenderandlevity just pointed out that I’ve been thinking of my PTSD and Autism ‘symptoms’ as having to be mutually exclusive to each other, when they could be an “and” instead of an “or”. I feel a bit silly for not having thought of that before, but I tend to think in black and white so […]
Yo, you know what sucks? Migraines. Which I have one so I’m typing this on my phone since I don’t have to listen to the clack clack clack of the keys on my computer. I’m actually starting to think my migraines may be trauma related because there’s a lot of overlap with stress and flashbacks […]
I am between being extremely anxious about the scale being up, extremely concerned about the pelvic pain and swelling, and attempting to be Zen about it. I’m sure it’s just Shark Week stuff. I’m considering getting a full hysterectomy because I am so fucking sick of my female organs causing shit. It’s annoying and nerve […]
I had a headache yesterday and felt sick to my stomach. I’m around 90% sure it’s because of nightmares and because I’m messing around with my sleep schedule a bit. I have nightmares a lot. Some nights they are worse than others. I often find myself waking up in a panic, my heart racing and […]
Oh my goodness, so many books, so little time! I saw Charon today and tried explaining to her about my current TVP and the books I’m using for it and she said that I’m reading self-improvement books so maybe I’m doing self-improvement. Except that’s not how it feels to me. I’m not really doing self-improvement […]
Hello again my friends! I’m feeling tons better and I think it was the decreased sodium intake because I haven’t been eating ramen. I ate a bunch of saltines and now I feel better. I’m nearly done with Daring Greatly and then I’m going to reread the Gifts of Imperfection and then I’m reading I […]
Greetings and good day/night to you all. I almost didn’t come online today. I know I’ve been rather off lately and I’m going to attribute that to lack of sleep and terrible sleep quality. I had tacos today and tacos make me happy. I mean, I guess they were technically burritos, but they were tacos […]
the sarcastic autist 