I don’t even remember the last time I posted. I’ve been going through so much shit lately. I asked for some Ativan for my panic attacks and got some. I have been having a lot of panic and anxiety attacks lately. My mum was sent to the hospital a week after Thanksgiving and she apparently […]
Hey all, sorry I’ve been MIA. I’ve been really struggling lately. Half the time I feel like I’m in some sort of weird dream state, the other half I’m just so depressed I can barely do anything. I’ve been dealing with a lot of urges to cut. I haven’t, though. The urge is there. Honestly, […]
Hisashiburi, mina! I’m still settling into the apartment. The cat is with me. I am still seeing that new therapist that I haven’t come up with a name yet for. I’m going to be trying to start HRT again. There’s a protest in the new city I’m in that I want to go to. I […]
Okay, folx, settle in, you’re in for a ride. So much has happened since I last updated. I’ve moved, my mum came home from rehab and then went back to the hospital and then back home, I had a Pathfinder convention, I made new friends, and I’ve been steadily getting worse with certain aspects of […]
I haven’t written in a while because life has been so hectic and I’ve been dealing with a shit ton of stress. My mum has been in a rehab facility for a few weeks now. She has kidney stones again. When they did the procedure to blast one of her kidneys, it fucked up her […]
I’d been wanting to wait to post until I got an update regarding housing stuff, but there seems to be a delay with the background check or something. I’ve been having a hell of a time and decided to update despite that. I’m going to continue seeing that new therapist. I’m going to have to […]
Okay, so I said I’d come up with some goals/things I wanted to work on in therapy and that I was going to label it “Therapy Quests” and I did. I’ve come up with a few. The Quests Quest One: I want to feel valued and loved. I want to stop feeling like I don’t […]
Trigger/Activation Warning: Alright, it has been a fucking week, let me tell you. I’m still dealing with the shock from my brother’s declaration that my experiences are/were real and that I’m not crazy. Adding on to that, I’m graduating DBT soon and I’m unsure if I’m going to be able to keep seeing […]
Charon is out of the office this week and I promised I would text her if I absolutely needed to. Any time I think to text her, I start feeling anxious because I don’t want to bother her. Even though she said I could bother her. She is encouraging me to bother her. I am […]
I’m feeling overwhelmed and I have been fighting the urge to cut for a while now. I had a talk with Charon the other day and it turns out that I was misunderstanding something she was telling me, so now we have that out of the way and can continue to move forward. I’m feeling […]
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