Okay, I promise I’ll respond to comments later, probably tomorrow or something. I just got back from therapy and my trans-masc support group. I talked to Charon and I am going to have to get a new therapist. Honestly, while I’m sad, it’s probably for the best because there’s stuff I don’t think I’d be […]
Charon is out of the office this week and I promised I would text her if I absolutely needed to. Any time I think to text her, I start feeling anxious because I don’t want to bother her. Even though she said I could bother her. She is encouraging me to bother her. I am […]
I’m feeling overwhelmed and I have been fighting the urge to cut for a while now. I had a talk with Charon the other day and it turns out that I was misunderstanding something she was telling me, so now we have that out of the way and can continue to move forward. I’m feeling […]
Had Charon today. I’m trying to do some Exposure Therapy stuff on my own with going to the Red Box Store that gives me flashbacks and shit and ended up being a bit late because I went to Red Box Store beforehand and missed the tram. Something that’s bothering me about Charon right now is […]
I made a total jack-ass of myself today. First, I was telling this trans person that they should stick melons down their shirt to make it fit better. Why the fuck I thought that was okay to tell someone I barely knew, I don’t know. That was not okay. For the record, I tell friends […]
I’m doing poorly, but not as poorly as I could be, so there’s that. I was at Big Blue Box Store earlier and there was a guy from Internet Company X who was doing sales. Which is fine, legit, but he got way too close to me. He made me uncomfortable. Then he called me […]
I realize I haven’t posted in a bit. I’ve had a lot going on. My grandma went into the hospital last week and got transferred to transitional care this week. I’ve been really bad about ‘making space’ for myself to let myself feel what I feel. I started going to that trans masc support group […]
Something I thought about earlier: Why do I listen to my anxiety and depression if they’re such fucking liars? I have no follow up on that line of thinking, just thought I would share. Moving on. I made an appointment with my psychiatrist, Styx, to talk about meds for my anxiety and depression. I still […]
Okay, I had DBT group today, again the LGBT one, and again, I didn’t hate it. I like the people. I ran into the issue of getting anxious and wanting to leave. My heart rate went from it’s normal 50-70 range to 130 at one point. I spent the better half of group focusing on […]
Okay, so I sleep better wearing lots of clothes again. Especially a bra, which I know you aren’t supposed to do. Let’s explore why. (Trigger Warning for childhood abuse) To start with, what I’m about to write is something I’m kind of hesitant to post. I just need to get it out there. I’m struggling […]
the sarcastic autist 