Trauma and the Core-Self

I’ve decided I’m going to start a book club of sorts for The Body Keeps The Score. Partly because I told a few friends about it and, since it’s heavy reading, reading it together to process it might be more beneficial.  Partly because if I have to suffer, so do others.  It’s a very triggering book […]

Prescriptions, Pressure Cookers, and Packers

Okay, I’m mostly off the Viibryd, just taking 5 mg every few days to keep the brain zaps from being debilitating. I’m doing a lot better than I was the other day.  Honestly, if I didn’t have the brain zaps, I’d say my mood is only slightly more depressed than usual.  Treatment Resistant Depression y’all. […]

Being Shit

I haven’t heard from Flapjack in a week now.  She’s been completely blowing me off and ignoring me.  I would understand it more if she was ghosting me, but she hasn’t blocked me on anything.  Oh well. Despite knowing that it’s a terrible idea, I’ve decided to taper myself off my Viibryd.  I don’t want […]

Burned-Out and Depressed

I’m tired and worn out.  It feels like it’s been nonstop gogogogogogogogogo lately.  A lot of doctor appointments.  I had my last physical therapy appointment today for my pelvic/back pain.  I give up.  My pain has been getting worse again.  I don’t know what to do about it anymore.  I don’t want another surgery so […]