I’m feeling overwhelmed and I have been fighting the urge to cut for a while now. I had a talk with Charon the other day and it turns out that I was misunderstanding something she was telling me, so now we have that out of the way and can continue to move forward. I’m feeling […]
When I had therapy with Cybele the other day, she made me feel the most validated I have in a long while. I told her about how I feel like the most masculine presenting person in one of my trans support groups where there’s mostly trans femme and trans women, whereas in the trans masc/trans […]
I realize I haven’t posted in a bit. I’ve had a lot going on. My grandma went into the hospital last week and got transferred to transitional care this week. I’ve been really bad about ‘making space’ for myself to let myself feel what I feel. I started going to that trans masc support group […]
So, I ran across a thing earlier on Reddit. This thing. And legit, it made me cry a bit. It helped put into words some of my experiences and what I feel and stuff. It really got me thinking, too, about why my mum might not be so nice to me about it and why she’s […]
Oh gods, the anxiety. The trans support group is tomorrow and I’m finding myself desperate to come up with an excuse not to go. Which isn’t going to work since I’ve already decided that I’m going. I no longer have a choice. I have to at least walk in the building it’s being held in. […]
Okay, y’all ready for this one? This morning on my ride to group, the taxi driver was a woman I’ve had a few times. Subject came up and I mentioned I don’t want kids because it kinda creeps me out. I love children, it’s just the idea of me being pregnant. She kept insisting that […]
I had my anniversary with my godmother today. She’s a very judgemental person. I went to church with her and then we went to a mexican restaurant and then we wandered around a mall for a bit. The church was one of those healing churches. You know, the loud ones where people go to get […]
My mum had a surgery today for her kidney stones and she didn’t come home because she wasn’t getting stabilized with oxygen and stuff. She should be home tomorrow. I slept for a long time. It was nice. I forgot to take a couple of my meds last night, but since I don’t get withdrawals […]
I am on the verge of either a shut down or a melt down. The jury is still out. I’ve been up since 3 am and it is now almost 8 pm. My keyboard stopped working so I have to use one of my mum’s old one’s and it’s gross and I hate it. I […]
Okay, I’m down to 10 mg of Viibryd. I’m tapering slowly instead of just going cold turkey, but I still get the withdrawals. They just aren’t as bad as they would be if I just quit. I’ve been struggling with wanting to quit therapy too. For a multitude of reasons, number one being that I […]
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