Brother, Charon, Pride

Brother and his spouse and child have been here since Thursday.  There’s been a few hiccups, but nothing major.  I went to Pride on Saturday for the first time.  It was fun.  I had therapy with Charon today.  Not so fun.  I’m pretty shut down for things. With Charon, it’s just… I don’t want to […]

Useless Nonbinary Lesbian

Hey everyone, I’m not dead.  I’ve just had a helluva week.  I haven’t posted in a week.  So, let’s break this down.  Heads up, I talk about sex stuff later in my post and my post is super long.  And by sex stuff, I don’t go into sordid details, but I do talk about sex […]

Unsafe Space

Charon will be out next week.  That’s okay.  It gives me time to think about how to talk to her about what we talked about today. She asked if I feel safe at home with my mum.  Emotionally, she says.  Obviously, the answer is no, but I’m afraid if I tell her that that she’ll […]

Trying to Figure Things Out

Okay, so reading about how trans people have transitioned and all the different ways binary folks have done it has been really inspiring and all.  I have no clue how nonbinary people do it.  There are things insurance will cover if you are MTF but not FTM and vice versa.  Like sometimes insurance will cover […]

Tribe Vibe-The Beginning

Okay, so let’s talk about how much I suck at reading people.  I suck at reading people.  I really, really, truly do.  Probably because Autism.  I’m going to tell Charon that this is something I really want to work on because I need to.  I don’t know how to act and that bothers me.  We […]


So, my therapist may have to cancel group Wednesday for personal reasons.  I get it, shit comes up, she’s only human.  I hope it all turns out okay for her. I totally danced around why I’ve been anxious lately and not sleeping well.  It’s not the rape, so there’s that.  It’s a million other things […]

Tiny Bite-Sized Processes

Okay, so I tend to be very bad at being able to do the whole break everything down into manageable tasks thing.  I see the forest and I see the trees and I see the leaves on the trees and I forget about the branches and then remember about the branches and end up getting […]

With Enthusiasm

Fuck yeah, 120 followers!  I’m so proud of me right now.  I ended up taking a nap this afternoon for a few hours.  I feel tons better.  I really needed that extra sleep. So, a few things since I didn’t really post yesterday beyond “yay, no cavities”.  First off, yay, no cavities.  I’m going to […]

Feeling Isolated and Alone

Hello, I don’t have much to write today.  I’m going to let you all know that the book club forum for The Body Keeps the Score is open for registration.  You can still join after registration closes, I’m not that much of a jerk.  I just want to have a start date of Friday, October […]