Hello, friends! Wow, has it been a rollercoaster ride these last few weeks. I’m having a really hard time with my depression and PTSD/CPTSD/whatever the fuck is wrong with me lately and have been doing the bare minimum lately. In addition, I have cramps right now and I don’t even have a uterus, so this […]
Hey all, sorry I’ve been MIA. I’ve been really struggling lately. Half the time I feel like I’m in some sort of weird dream state, the other half I’m just so depressed I can barely do anything. I’ve been dealing with a lot of urges to cut. I haven’t, though. The urge is there. Honestly, […]
Hisashiburi, mina! I’m still settling into the apartment. The cat is with me. I am still seeing that new therapist that I haven’t come up with a name yet for. I’m going to be trying to start HRT again. There’s a protest in the new city I’m in that I want to go to. I […]
Okay, folx, settle in, you’re in for a ride. So much has happened since I last updated. I’ve moved, my mum came home from rehab and then went back to the hospital and then back home, I had a Pathfinder convention, I made new friends, and I’ve been steadily getting worse with certain aspects of […]
I haven’t written in a while because life has been so hectic and I’ve been dealing with a shit ton of stress. My mum has been in a rehab facility for a few weeks now. She has kidney stones again. When they did the procedure to blast one of her kidneys, it fucked up her […]
I’d been wanting to wait to post until I got an update regarding housing stuff, but there seems to be a delay with the background check or something. I’ve been having a hell of a time and decided to update despite that. I’m going to continue seeing that new therapist. I’m going to have to […]
I got into an argument with my brother yesterday. His kid was crying for whatever reason and being fussy and I heard Oniisan and Sister-in-law arguing with Nephew and then I heard what sounded like a smack and heavier crying. It set me off. I cried a bit because I was scared. When Oniisan left […]
Okay, so I said I’d come up with some goals/things I wanted to work on in therapy and that I was going to label it “Therapy Quests” and I did. I’ve come up with a few. The Quests Quest One: I want to feel valued and loved. I want to stop feeling like I don’t […]
I had my last DBT group today. Everyone said such nice things about me. I gave Charon the letter I wrote to her and I gave her this joke shaker thingy full of jokes for her. I asked if she would accept old Chaz and she said yes. So now Charon has old Chaz. I […]
Okay, this is going to sound petty as fuck, but I’m really disappointed. We were going to have spaghetti tonight so I was going to have spaghetti tacos since I hate regular spaghetti and my brother said he’d pick up some spaghetti noodles for me from the store. I wasn’t told he was leaving and […]
the sarcastic autist 