I don’t even remember the last time I posted. I’ve been going through so much shit lately. I asked for some Ativan for my panic attacks and got some. I have been having a lot of panic and anxiety attacks lately. My mum was sent to the hospital a week after Thanksgiving and she apparently […]
Hisashiburi, mina! I’m still settling into the apartment. The cat is with me. I am still seeing that new therapist that I haven’t come up with a name yet for. I’m going to be trying to start HRT again. There’s a protest in the new city I’m in that I want to go to. I […]
I’d been wanting to wait to post until I got an update regarding housing stuff, but there seems to be a delay with the background check or something. I’ve been having a hell of a time and decided to update despite that. I’m going to continue seeing that new therapist. I’m going to have to […]
Trigger/Activation Warning: Alright, it has been a fucking week, let me tell you. I’m still dealing with the shock from my brother’s declaration that my experiences are/were real and that I’m not crazy. Adding on to that, I’m graduating DBT soon and I’m unsure if I’m going to be able to keep seeing […]
I’m feeling overwhelmed and I have been fighting the urge to cut for a while now. I had a talk with Charon the other day and it turns out that I was misunderstanding something she was telling me, so now we have that out of the way and can continue to move forward. I’m feeling […]
I realize I haven’t posted in a bit. I’ve had a lot going on. My grandma went into the hospital last week and got transferred to transitional care this week. I’ve been really bad about ‘making space’ for myself to let myself feel what I feel. I started going to that trans masc support group […]
Okay, so, I spent the night at Sweet Pea’s house on Saturday and today is Monday, so I really just been busy. This won’t be as long as the other post I just made and I’ll be elaborating more tomorrow since I’m still tired. We DTRed tonight at my request. I’m okay with poly relationships […]
Okay, so I’ve been in a lot of pain again today, but I figured I might as well come on and give a real report since I don’t think I’ve done that in a few days and I know I have a couple of comments to reply to. Pain sucks. I just want to say […]
Okay, y’all ready for this one? This morning on my ride to group, the taxi driver was a woman I’ve had a few times. Subject came up and I mentioned I don’t want kids because it kinda creeps me out. I love children, it’s just the idea of me being pregnant. She kept insisting that […]
I am colouring my hair again. Blue this time. It probably won’t come out well, but I don’t care. My skin is also getting coloured. I’m a smurf. I had my MRI this morning. I don’t know how it turned out, but probably normal. My leg still hurts. I won’t go to a pain clinic […]
the sarcastic autist 