The Bad and the Good

Sleep is a myth perpetuated by Big Pharma and the makers of Melatonin. I had panic attacks yesterday.  Yes, plural.  So, shit is actually getting pretty bad and I should really talk to Charon about it.  Every night is nightmares/night terrors.  I wake up sweating and/or shaking half the time.  This is getting bad.  I […]

the Death and Rebirth of Transitioning

I had name change court Tuesday, the 15th.  I have officially changed my name.  My mum was going to drive me to the Social Security office so I can change it with them, but it’s been cold and we are lazy.  And also very sensitive to the cold.  We are planning on going Tuesday, as […]

DTRed

Okay, so, I spent the night at Sweet Pea’s house on Saturday and today is Monday, so I really just been busy.  This won’t be as long as the other post I just made and I’ll be elaborating more tomorrow since I’m still tired. We DTRed tonight at my request.  I’m okay with poly relationships […]

Useless Nonbinary Lesbian

Hey everyone, I’m not dead.  I’ve just had a helluva week.  I haven’t posted in a week.  So, let’s break this down.  Heads up, I talk about sex stuff later in my post and my post is super long.  And by sex stuff, I don’t go into sordid details, but I do talk about sex […]

Unsafe Space

Charon will be out next week.  That’s okay.  It gives me time to think about how to talk to her about what we talked about today. She asked if I feel safe at home with my mum.  Emotionally, she says.  Obviously, the answer is no, but I’m afraid if I tell her that that she’ll […]

Tiny Bite-Sized Processes

Okay, so I tend to be very bad at being able to do the whole break everything down into manageable tasks thing.  I see the forest and I see the trees and I see the leaves on the trees and I forget about the branches and then remember about the branches and end up getting […]

With Enthusiasm

Fuck yeah, 120 followers!  I’m so proud of me right now.  I ended up taking a nap this afternoon for a few hours.  I feel tons better.  I really needed that extra sleep. So, a few things since I didn’t really post yesterday beyond “yay, no cavities”.  First off, yay, no cavities.  I’m going to […]

The Friend-iversary

I had my anniversary with my godmother today.  She’s a very judgemental person.  I went to church with her and then we went to a mexican restaurant and then we wandered around a mall for a bit. The church was one of those healing churches.  You know, the loud ones where people go to get […]

Reasons Why Anxiety

My mum had a surgery today for her kidney stones and she didn’t come home because she wasn’t getting stabilized with oxygen and stuff.  She should be home tomorrow. I slept for a long time.  It was nice.  I forgot to take a couple of my meds last night, but since I don’t get withdrawals […]