Another Open Letter to My Therapist

Wow, 50 followers!  Thank you so much guys!  I am so happy.  I had PT earlier today and I slept like shit again.  I also had a smallish accident with peeing myself a bit earlier.  I’ve been trying to pay attention to when I need to go and not go as often and I just […]

My Spazzing and Me: Sensory Edition

So, I left group early today.  We had to switch to a new room on the third floor.  It smelled of new paint.  It also was too bright and too loud and I had an overload and left early to avoid a meltdown.  As it is, I started crying and I was spazzing/stimming real bad. […]

Random Ramblings: Verge of a Meltdown

I’ll do replies tomorrow.  Tonight, I just need to vent. I’ve been up since 8 this morning.  Keeping in mind that, despite my computer being off by midnight, despite my best efforts, I cannot fall asleep well, nor can I stay asleep well.  The best sleep I’ve ever had was with heavy blankets but I […]

Overwhelmed and about to Implode

Greetings, my friends!  I am feeling a lot better physically now!  I slept a lot and drank tons of water.  What really helped was eating a bag of pretzels this morning and drinking some juice.  I keep forgetting to make sure my blood sugar is in check.  It’s a pain in the butt but I gotta […]

Avoiding Avoidance

Merry meet and merry part and merry meet again, my cyber-brothers and cyber-sisters.  Tomorrow is the day I finally start to get this retesting thing going.  Why retesting?  Because maybe I’m not really Autistic and you are all figments of some grand paranoid delusion starring other mentally ill persons and a very needy cat.  Or, […]

On Routines and Interruptions

Hey guys, before I dive into today’s post, I just wanted to let you know that I’m building an additional page for resources.  So far, I just have a lot of crisis and suicide hot lines, apps, and texting places.  I’ll be adding more awesome stuff for you awesome folks later.  We now return to […]

Eating Disorders and Shutdowns

Oh. My. Various. Heathen.  Gods. Guten Tag, my friends!  Today, I just felt like shit.  I woke up in a foul mood, and it didn’t improve as the day went on.  I’m still in a pretty dark ‘fuck you and fuck that rock and fuck that tree and fuck the state of political affairs in […]