Fucking Hells

Hey all, sorry I’ve been MIA.  I’ve been really struggling lately. Half the time I feel like I’m in some sort of weird dream state, the other half I’m just so depressed I can barely do anything. I’ve been dealing with a lot of urges to cut.  I haven’t, though. The urge is there.  Honestly, […]

Stressed AF

I haven’t written in a while because life has been so hectic and I’ve been dealing with a shit ton of stress. My mum has been in a rehab facility for a few weeks now.  She has kidney stones again.  When they did the procedure to blast one of her kidneys, it fucked up her […]

Sleep Rant

Greetings hopefully fellow humans!  I went to the store today and then I watched the Gremlins movie with Okaasan and ate pizza.  It was gluten-free vegan taco pizza that tastes like sadness, like the vegan sour cream and weird chewy bars I bought. I’m sad today.  I don’t know if what I have counts as […]

Sleep & Nightmares

Hello, my people of the internet!  Third day posting in a row!  Yay!  Go me!  I had an appointment with Styx, the psychiatrist, today.  Nothing new to report.  I don’t like to change my medications.  She did mention that I could increase my hydroxyzine dosage to 100mg at night for sleep.  I’d prefer not to […]

Random Ramblings: Mindfulness and Melatonin

Oh my various gods, why is it so cold.  It’s freezing.  I’ve lost too much weight.  I should pack on the pounds again.  And then eat sticks, mud, and grass and hibernate for the winter.  I’m kidding.  I’m gaining a lot of muscle (as in I have an actual butt now and no longer qualify […]