I don’t even remember the last time I posted. I’ve been going through so much shit lately. I asked for some Ativan for my panic attacks and got some. I have been having a lot of panic and anxiety attacks lately. My mum was sent to the hospital a week after Thanksgiving and she apparently […]
Hey all, sorry I’ve been MIA. I’ve been really struggling lately. Half the time I feel like I’m in some sort of weird dream state, the other half I’m just so depressed I can barely do anything. I’ve been dealing with a lot of urges to cut. I haven’t, though. The urge is there. Honestly, […]
I haven’t written in a while because life has been so hectic and I’ve been dealing with a shit ton of stress. My mum has been in a rehab facility for a few weeks now. She has kidney stones again. When they did the procedure to blast one of her kidneys, it fucked up her […]
Okay, so, I spent the night at Sweet Pea’s house on Saturday and today is Monday, so I really just been busy. This won’t be as long as the other post I just made and I’ll be elaborating more tomorrow since I’m still tired. We DTRed tonight at my request. I’m okay with poly relationships […]
I am allergic to dogs. I am very allergic to dogs. I’m allergic to cats, too, but Neko-chan is long haired and that means all her crud is trapped like me in this hell hole of a town. I got a list of places with open wait lists for low-income housing from an agency my […]
Okay, y’all ready for this one? This morning on my ride to group, the taxi driver was a woman I’ve had a few times. Subject came up and I mentioned I don’t want kids because it kinda creeps me out. I love children, it’s just the idea of me being pregnant. She kept insisting that […]
I am colouring my hair again. Blue this time. It probably won’t come out well, but I don’t care. My skin is also getting coloured. I’m a smurf. I had my MRI this morning. I don’t know how it turned out, but probably normal. My leg still hurts. I won’t go to a pain clinic […]
I had my anniversary with my godmother today. She’s a very judgemental person. I went to church with her and then we went to a mexican restaurant and then we wandered around a mall for a bit. The church was one of those healing churches. You know, the loud ones where people go to get […]
My mum had a surgery today for her kidney stones and she didn’t come home because she wasn’t getting stabilized with oxygen and stuff. She should be home tomorrow. I slept for a long time. It was nice. I forgot to take a couple of my meds last night, but since I don’t get withdrawals […]
I am on the verge of either a shut down or a melt down. The jury is still out. I’ve been up since 3 am and it is now almost 8 pm. My keyboard stopped working so I have to use one of my mum’s old one’s and it’s gross and I hate it. I […]
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