Unsafe Space

Charon will be out next week.  That’s okay.  It gives me time to think about how to talk to her about what we talked about today. She asked if I feel safe at home with my mum.  Emotionally, she says.  Obviously, the answer is no, but I’m afraid if I tell her that that she’ll […]

Anxious Anger and Hopelessness

First of all, I just want to say that I woke up this morning and realized I looked like a teenaged boy without makeup on and that made me really happy for some reason.   I enjoy that.  I like wearing makeup because it covers my acne and I feel naked without it.  But I’m starting […]

Trying to Figure Things Out

Okay, so reading about how trans people have transitioned and all the different ways binary folks have done it has been really inspiring and all.  I have no clue how nonbinary people do it.  There are things insurance will cover if you are MTF but not FTM and vice versa.  Like sometimes insurance will cover […]

Tribe Vibe-The Beginning

Okay, so let’s talk about how much I suck at reading people.  I suck at reading people.  I really, really, truly do.  Probably because Autism.  I’m going to tell Charon that this is something I really want to work on because I need to.  I don’t know how to act and that bothers me.  We […]

Tired

So, my therapist may have to cancel group Wednesday for personal reasons.  I get it, shit comes up, she’s only human.  I hope it all turns out okay for her. I totally danced around why I’ve been anxious lately and not sleeping well.  It’s not the rape, so there’s that.  It’s a million other things […]

Tiny Bite-Sized Processes

Okay, so I tend to be very bad at being able to do the whole break everything down into manageable tasks thing.  I see the forest and I see the trees and I see the leaves on the trees and I forget about the branches and then remember about the branches and end up getting […]